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What the fuck is that, “act my age”?
What do I care how old I am?
The Ocean is old as fuck.
It will still drown your ass with vigor."

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something beyond reality. something deeper.
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something beyond reality. something deeper.

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Morbidly Decaying

Anonymous said: Mika, I know we rarely talk but as a friend from the past, I would like to say you are not alone, I've lost friends and gotten my heart broken, had my father walk out on me, but the glue to my broken spirit are my friends no matter how old. I told you this because you matter to someone, I know I'm on anon but you were and still considered my friend. please understand you are special and worth it ^__^

Thank you love. Bad things happen. Iknow that, but I’m just a little to dizzy and not all here. But thank you. It means a lot to be reminded.

Morbidly Decaying

Anonymous said: Hi love,we're friends. I just wanted to say that when I read your post they hurt me because you are so beautiful,wonderful,smart. I know its hard to believe people when they say it will get better but I want to try. I wouldnt be able handle you gone

You’re a sweet heart. I know everything gets better but I just feel weak right now. I’ll lift my spirit sooner or later. Thank you though.

Morbidly Decaying

Anonymous said: Hey Mika, it's an old friend, I hope you are doing okay, I know you are strong. Please don't let sadness, anxiety and anger decay who you are because I think you are a really awesome person

You’re such a sweet heart. But my bones are broken down and decaying and moving forward will only keep them crumbling. I’ll try to find some glue to keep myself together in the mean time. Thank you love.

Her eyes opened wide and she tried to hide the despise. Her heart his shallow and she’s terrified to try.

Ohmygosh. What if he leaves me for her? What if it’s all for naught? What if she steals his heart away one more time? I wasn’t with it the first two times, why would it be any different now? I’m so scared. I shouldn’t be. If he doesn’t want me I couldn’t blame him. In useless. Oh god.

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Wow, okay. I could say so much about you it’s kinda crazy. Actually a little embarrassing. I think you’re just so beautiful and lovely. You’re powerful diction makes me so happy. It makes me realize not everyone in this world is hopeless. You just look really perfect to me and I’m always happy to run into you. (Not to sound creepy) but I think your lips are super pretty. I hope you have a wonderful tomorrow, beautiful. (:

I’m such a faker. I smile and laugh do much at school. I talk to people casually and laugh at all the appropriate times. I volunteer and always do my work, but inside I’m dying. My insides are hollow and I can’t breath. I have a fake smile plastered on my lips. My eyes don’t shine as bright as they used to and the green around the rims seem dull. Eating is more of a sign of distraction so people stop asking questions. I look at girls and curse myself for not being them then curse myself for staring to long at their beauty.

let’s talk about the physical affects of chronic anxiety because they’re hardly ever acknowledged





  • upset stomach and vomiting
  • ulcers
  • muscle aches
  • chronic fatigue
  • hormonal problems
  • irregular menstrual cycles
  • insomnia
  • infections
  • lowered immune system
  • migraines
  • shortness of breath
  • dizziness
  • heart palpitations
  • teeth-grinding
  • rashes

it is a lot more than just “feeling anxious “

thank you.

Also higher risk of developing a permanent heart condition, which I have.

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